Frankly I never thought I'd ever be making a post like this, largely because of how great the setting of this site is - although problems have occurred here and there, I am often able to put them aside for the sake of roleplaying.
Sadly, however, my continued problems in the real world have made it very difficult for me to maintain any kind of a presence on the site apart from the occasional checkup every couple of days or so. While I won't go into major details, largely because I don't think that is what would interest people, what I can say is this:
1. I am still jobless, still unemployed, this has been onward now for many years. Originally SARP served as a means for me to get away from those hardships, so that I can find some peace, unfortunately that was only able to last for so long and now I am forced to face reality.
2. Most people know that I battle depression on a near constant basis, it isn't something I talk about publically since I felt it wasn't really anyone business but those that knew me and talked with me constantly. SARP was originally one those avenues that I used to help battle that depression, because I felt this was a place where I belonged and that it was a place that helped me deal with that - and for years - that was truly the case. Many of the people here made me feel very welcomed, and when they found out about my problems, they did what they could to help me out and for those people I am truly grateful.
Unfortunately, starting a few months ago, a certain event I will not talk about caused me to have a number of major depressive spells that has gotten my family - and others - worried about my wellbeing. Part of the reason I distanced myself from the site was because in doing so, I felt that it would lesson those spells and it actually has, which hurts all the more given that I love this site.
My Hiatus from the site isn't just due to my health deteriorating and getting worse as the months go by, but also out of suggestion by several SARP members who feel that it would help me. Truly this wasn't an easy decision to come to, it took me quite a few months of constantly thinking about it and finding out what was really best for me.
I does hurt though, as I promised my players that I'd provide for them a great experience, but in my current state that is just not something that I can give them. As of today, Nashoba is the Faction Manager for the Neshaten and also the head GM for the Gam'trosha, all of my characters on the site will be put under his purview. Nashoba will also be receiving all of my information about the faction, so that he can more easily run it.
While I hope the Bloody Claws remains open, as I had created it to serve as a learning plot for the faction, I will leave the decision up to Nash.
I do hope that my players can find it in themselves for forgive me for breaking my promise.
Hope all of you do well in the future, that things for this site continue to look up and that things get better. Maybe when I return I'll see an even richer setting!
So long all, take care of yourself, and please do not fight
Sadly, however, my continued problems in the real world have made it very difficult for me to maintain any kind of a presence on the site apart from the occasional checkup every couple of days or so. While I won't go into major details, largely because I don't think that is what would interest people, what I can say is this:
1. I am still jobless, still unemployed, this has been onward now for many years. Originally SARP served as a means for me to get away from those hardships, so that I can find some peace, unfortunately that was only able to last for so long and now I am forced to face reality.
2. Most people know that I battle depression on a near constant basis, it isn't something I talk about publically since I felt it wasn't really anyone business but those that knew me and talked with me constantly. SARP was originally one those avenues that I used to help battle that depression, because I felt this was a place where I belonged and that it was a place that helped me deal with that - and for years - that was truly the case. Many of the people here made me feel very welcomed, and when they found out about my problems, they did what they could to help me out and for those people I am truly grateful.
Unfortunately, starting a few months ago, a certain event I will not talk about caused me to have a number of major depressive spells that has gotten my family - and others - worried about my wellbeing. Part of the reason I distanced myself from the site was because in doing so, I felt that it would lesson those spells and it actually has, which hurts all the more given that I love this site.
My Hiatus from the site isn't just due to my health deteriorating and getting worse as the months go by, but also out of suggestion by several SARP members who feel that it would help me. Truly this wasn't an easy decision to come to, it took me quite a few months of constantly thinking about it and finding out what was really best for me.
I does hurt though, as I promised my players that I'd provide for them a great experience, but in my current state that is just not something that I can give them. As of today, Nashoba is the Faction Manager for the Neshaten and also the head GM for the Gam'trosha, all of my characters on the site will be put under his purview. Nashoba will also be receiving all of my information about the faction, so that he can more easily run it.
While I hope the Bloody Claws remains open, as I had created it to serve as a learning plot for the faction, I will leave the decision up to Nash.
I do hope that my players can find it in themselves for forgive me for breaking my promise.
Hope all of you do well in the future, that things for this site continue to look up and that things get better. Maybe when I return I'll see an even richer setting!
So long all, take care of yourself, and please do not fight
