Desperation.
It was not a quality welcome in a military. Desperation in soldiers suggested a lack of discipline. A battle is not going well? Retreat to better circumstances. The enemy is closing in? Utilize a defensive strategy. Ambush? Counter-attack swiftly and with form. In commanders, it suggested either arrogance, incompetence or both.
Tempered properly, desperation was an energy source. A motivator. Something to be exploited. It was determination.
What Yukari saw before her, in the five simulations Kotori had drawn up, carried all the hallmarks of a determined commander -- well-thoughtout plans, plenty of research, careful simulations. Kotori was doing what Kotori was known for doing -- being ready before being dead. It was a comforting feeling, or would have been.
What Yukari saw between the navigation ticks and wire lines of the giant Mishhu flagship bled desperation. It was not gushing, but it was there. It was not desperation to survive, either, but desperation to win.
The note said it all. "Can you do this Yuka?" Do what? the officer asked herself. Do something entirely foolhardy? Something that would send us to Chiharu-sama?
Skill was not a factor; neither was self-confidence. Yukari was not unsure she could actually do what the last simulation suggested; she knew she could not do it. The maneuver necessary was simple, much like a flake of soap spirals around a sink drain before sliding down. Dodging the beams, assuming the flagship did not catch on to the maneuver, required only a small space to bounce about within. The torpedoes only needed quick reflexes to spoil; the second WARMS alerted her, she would dodge. She was a Nekovalkyrja; she was that good.
But the assumptions ran too high. If other ships were sacrificing themselves to aid the Miharu; if the flagship did not change firing patterns; if the anti-FTL field was not up; if, if, if. All plans had some measure of assumption in them, but this was ... a lot. Too much. It was not a plan at all; none of them was. It was arrogance.
Yukari just shook her head. She was taking things too seriously, again. Kotori was probably bored, or frustrated. There was no harm in simulations, was there? Taking time to filter ideas, purify them, strengthen them, was all part of being a dedicated and determined commander.
She went back to her work. But ... the feeling would not leave her alone. Kotori was cool under pressure, but she was also immature, angry and proud. She was o-Samurai, incomplete, but still o-Samurai. Kotori did not take loss well. Was this a sign of her need for revenge? For what Melisson did to her, to Hanako.
... There was no way to bring up the subject lightly. Yukari resolved to wait for the most opportune moment to speak with her commander. For now, she pushed the simulations aside again, not wishing to consider them.
Her work was soon interrupted by Miharu's notice of a strange occurrance in the medlab.
"Eh ... ?" Yukari frowned at the message, not understanding. She put her headset on. "Suzuka-Chui to medlab, is all well?"