John kept a straight face. Not a good start, but then, he'd prove himself. He always had in the past. People assume the goatee means 'useless' when in fact he only ever had it because it allowed him to look normal and still have a beard. He'd probably grow out the rest, now that he was among preferable company.
Suddenly, he realized that quiet didn't work. Instead of controlling himself, he should be showing how hard he can push, his 'spirit' as it were. Good thing he could give speeches on demand, because if he couldn't then the torrent of words that he felt bubbling up inside of him would have simply been pure, babbling rage. This man was just doing his job, separating the wheat from the chaff, but John would step out of an airlock without a suit before he allowed himself to go down that easily.
So, he went for broke. Screw it - if his captain didn't like him, it would make life 100% harder over his entire posting. If he appreciated pushback, he'd get pushback. In front of the strange, rankless man he opened his mouth and saw what would come out.
"Sir, I get it. You see me in a military outfit, goatee, yadda yadda freakin' yadda, and you think 'ponce'. You think 'This man will drop his gun when a bullet hits the other side of the couch he's hiding behind'. Above all you think 'insolent' because you pretty much blatantly asked for pushback and pressured me to give it, and got apathy instead. But you weren't going to let me talk for any extended period, and we both know that. 'Yes, sir' was the best possible answer, because you don't know me.
"The fact of the matter is that I'm here to fight. If necessary, I'm here to die. Before you write me off as 'useless', consider that not every noble on Neplesia is a poncy bastard with no fashion sense. This?" he stroked his goatee, "This was to fit in in high society. I'll shave it if you want. I don't care. But don't insult my intelligence by presuming that I'm going to take this lying down just because my bio says 'quiet'.
"I'm here to be a soldier, and a soldier is what I'll be. I will follow any order you give me efficiently and I will kill anyone I need to in the line of duty. I am here to do a job and I will do that job. And I will follow you, without any backtalk or insolence, despite all appearances to the contrary. Let me be a soldier, and I will be a paragon. Make me a pariah, and you'll have a meatbag who never did anything useful in his whole damn life."
He saluted, in all earnestness, and finished with a "Am I dismissed, sir?" in a voice suddenly dead calm. He couldn't tell if Murdoch's look was enraged disbelief or disbelieving rage, and he wasn't even looking at Bastilen. He imagined he'd just effectively condemned himself to permanent guard duty, 24/7. Good thing he could control his hormones, the adrenaline would be knocking him over if he allowed himself to feel it now. He had never allowed his stance to change and never once looked at the captain during his speech - straight forward, chin up, the soldier posture. He hoped that he wasn't about to be crushed. If he was honest, he would probably wet himself if he had to keep up this act much longer.
It occurred to him, far too late, that that babbling torrent of words was only going to make things worse. Still, he'd said his piece. If he was going to consign himself to the death of a useless meatbag, he may as well do so in style.