Arinori's eyes were glued on the horizon, her lifeless fighter drifting slowly between chunks of debris. Her anger, her frustration, all seemed so petty not as she gazed on the horizon. Her eyes widened as the reality of what she was seeing hit her like a tsunami, sending a cold chill down her spine.
The reply from the Heitan sounded so distant, like the echo of a dream. Arinori's breathing increased, her voice shivering, her heartbeat rising at a breakneck pace. The destruction, she had seen recordings, pictures, descriptions in books..but..nothing, nothing could prepare her for this. So much destruction unfolding before her eyes. All those ships, those beautiful Yamataian vessels filled with her brothers and sisters in arms, burning, breaking, twisting, plummeting to certain doom on the planet's surface below. She could feel them perish, she could feel their fear. So many lives, precious lives, cut short, lost forever.
Tears gathered at the edges of Arinor's eyes, a hiccup like sob breaking from her clenched throat. None of them deserved this. She was born and bred for this purpose, to fight and die for the Empire, a weapon..but..this..this was Hell, nothing less.
Arinori's eyes turned to the wreckage of a NMX ship, locked in a death spiral with a Yamataian vessel, plummeting towards the planet's surface. She reached out to the bubble of her cockpit, her fingers curling uselessly against the glass. She was helpless here, she couldn't help them, no matter how much she wanted to. She was helpless..powerless. That truth cut her more deeply then she'd ever been cut before. Nothing, nothing compared to this.
These NMX..this war..it had to end. Her empire wasn't strong enough, her armadas weren't strong enough, their weapons weren't strong enough. Arninor's hand flopped onto her lap as the ship disappeared into the atmosphere. Tears flowed from glazed eyes, staring ahead, but seeing nothing
"Never again. she said softly to herself "Never again, never again." she said to herself, almost chanting as she curled up. She wasn't angry..she was supposed to be angry..but she wasn't..it was all so clear now..her purpose was laid out perfectly before her..the only question was...how ?