(OOC: Caine is seventeen; six years younger than Ichiro. He is not an 'older man' In fact, he is younger than all of the enlisted!)
Tesuro had taken out his notepad while he was still at the height of his good mood. He did not know whether to detail the events of what had happened, or to write a poem relating to how he felt. The notepad was tossed from hand to hand before he made his decision:
He wrote the former not knowing, of course, of the sexually immoral act he had just committed.
Tesuro paused, knowing what he would write next but not entirely sure how to begin or how much detail to put in. He knew that the possibility of his notepad being found was very real, and did not want any concrete evidence pertaining to what he and Kiyoko had done. His fear revolved around the possibility that his equals would treat him with disdain, thinking him in high favor of the Shosa, and shunning him from typical activities. Being the loner that he was, he knew how to occupy his time alone, but he had always been solitary of his own accord, not because he had been outcasted by his peers. Shaking his head, he continued, telling himself that he must chronicle all important events, no matter how risky it was to do so, if he wanted to write a full and engaging book.
Quickly he flipped the notepad shut and tucked the pen back in its place. He shook his hand from writing so much, trying to get the blood flowing properly. Placing the notepad on his lap, he felt that he needed to write more--to portray his feelings in a more pure way. A poem is what he needed, but his current environment was not suitable enough for inspiration. He then resolved to sleep for a while, as his natural Yamataian body needed but a few hours for total refueling, then wake up a couple of hours before the next day's briefing at 0600, go to the Arborteum (which will have been cleaned by that time) and allow his surroundings to drive him to write.
Suddenly he heard a loud crash outside and he stood up quickly, careful not to hit his head on the top bunk. He walked to the door and into the corridor, looking out into the commons when he reached the end. Instead of walking completely out, he merely peered from the side and looked in. He saw Ichiro helping up the blonde haired man he had seen pantsless at the party and Kiyoe fixing the couch, which had apparently fallen over. What he happened, he had no idea, but just as he was about to go out and ask what the commotion was about, he noticed Akira in the room with them.
Shit! he thought. He jumped back behind the corridor, still wanting to apologize to Akira, but not in front of everyone. Does this mean he'll be sharing these quarters...?
Dwelling on this thought for just a moment, he resolved to immediately go to bed to avoid having to speak with him in front of the others. He figured it would be easier to take Akira aside when they were both up and rested in the morning than to barge into the full room and start apologizing to Akira, blurting out in front of everyone his opinions on homosexuality and how he still respected Akira. That was private and needed to be discussed privately, so he quickly escaped back into the bunks, having not made a noise or said a word, and jumped under his covers.
Tesuro had taken out his notepad while he was still at the height of his good mood. He did not know whether to detail the events of what had happened, or to write a poem relating to how he felt. The notepad was tossed from hand to hand before he made his decision:
Despite my instincts telling me otherwise, I decided to attend the party of my own accord so as to not risk offending the Shosa. The party was not what I expected, and I did not stay long as I was soon subject to the most grand display of sexual immorality I had ever seen or heard of.
He wrote the former not knowing, of course, of the sexually immoral act he had just committed.
I suppose one would think me strange for running away from a group of naked Nekovalkyrja, known for being the most sexual creatures in the Yamatai Star Empire, but when you are drowning in a sea of wild and horny nekos, the arousal is completely absent. Unfortunately I did not have the opportunity to talk with Miss Kanai and Ichiro (whose last name I still have not learned), though the former did have the pleasure of seeing me smash my face into the table. Even with all that the night would prove to provide more dilemma for me when I met a man by the name of Akira. Like me he is new to this ship, though he arrived later than I. Naively I got to talking with him and quickly learned what a strange yet fascinating person he was. I am disappointed that our conversation lasted only so long, as he seemed like the type of person with whom I could relate to on an intellectual level. Of course I do not wish to imply that I am smarter than my fellow enlistees, not at all; however there are certain areas of study, such as philosophical and metaphysical, that I would like to discuss with someone and unfortunately my only other comrades do not appear to be the type to be interested in those things (though I loathe myself just a bit for judging them like that without them having shown me otherwise). But much to my dismay, I overreacted to the fact that Akira's sexual preference was such that it involved an eye for me and the rest of my gender, and I foolishly ran off, leaving him there without a word. That was not something I would normally have done; I have no problem with his sexual choices and view them very objectively. With whom he enjoys to have relations with is his own business and I do not look down on him for favoring male genitalia over female genitalia; I am certainly not that shallow. However with all the other stresses I had endured over the night and the overwhelming sexual energy of the entire affair I entered a sort of "fight or flight" mode which ended with me choosing the latter. I hope to find that man again soon and apologize to him, he did not deserve such a harsh reaction and it disturbs me to a very high degree that I may have offended him and that he may now think me a bigot. But in another blunder of poor choices and confusion, instead of approaching the situation in a mature and logical way as I normally would, I decided to drown myself in alcohol and and bathe myself with cold water like a common drunkard.
Tesuro paused, knowing what he would write next but not entirely sure how to begin or how much detail to put in. He knew that the possibility of his notepad being found was very real, and did not want any concrete evidence pertaining to what he and Kiyoko had done. His fear revolved around the possibility that his equals would treat him with disdain, thinking him in high favor of the Shosa, and shunning him from typical activities. Being the loner that he was, he knew how to occupy his time alone, but he had always been solitary of his own accord, not because he had been outcasted by his peers. Shaking his head, he continued, telling himself that he must chronicle all important events, no matter how risky it was to do so, if he wanted to write a full and engaging book.
That poor choice would prove to work against me, as I had been indulging myself in drink for about 20 minutes when Kiyoko came to my room, quite mysteriously. I could not imagine why she would come to see me, alone, seemingly without warning, but I was not about to deny her entry. I let her in and tried in vain to conceal my drunken nervousness, but despite my state she treated me with respect, and we began talking. She told me of her mothers and thinks of that ilk, and I found her to be most interesting. She became very relatable to me and in my mind I took her off of this far-off, otherworldly pedastal of superior ranking. It was not long after that that things became playful...and soon very intimate. I was taken from one world of seclusion, isolation, and a certain degree of naivete into this world of raw sexuality that only the two of us shared. I don't care to go into the details of our relations here, as that would be unnecessary and distasteful, but I will say that it was incredible. I know she had other lovers before me, but I hope that my time with her will stand out, and will allow me to seek her our again. It is a strange feeling, what I have now, in the very pit of my stomach. I know Kiyoko not very well, yet I have this yearning to learn more. I want to know her in and out: her past, her future plans, her passions, desires, likes, dislikes, how she feels, how she functions...everything anyone could want to know about another person. In doing this however, I fear I may have taken her from one pedastal to another, and I wish only to treat her as my equal; worthy of my interest and curiousity, but not revered as the object of sexual and emotional NEED. Such attention may scare her off, and I do not want to do that. I plan to take my relationship with her as far as I can, and I hope that she, too, feels the same way about me...
Quickly he flipped the notepad shut and tucked the pen back in its place. He shook his hand from writing so much, trying to get the blood flowing properly. Placing the notepad on his lap, he felt that he needed to write more--to portray his feelings in a more pure way. A poem is what he needed, but his current environment was not suitable enough for inspiration. He then resolved to sleep for a while, as his natural Yamataian body needed but a few hours for total refueling, then wake up a couple of hours before the next day's briefing at 0600, go to the Arborteum (which will have been cleaned by that time) and allow his surroundings to drive him to write.
Suddenly he heard a loud crash outside and he stood up quickly, careful not to hit his head on the top bunk. He walked to the door and into the corridor, looking out into the commons when he reached the end. Instead of walking completely out, he merely peered from the side and looked in. He saw Ichiro helping up the blonde haired man he had seen pantsless at the party and Kiyoe fixing the couch, which had apparently fallen over. What he happened, he had no idea, but just as he was about to go out and ask what the commotion was about, he noticed Akira in the room with them.
Shit! he thought. He jumped back behind the corridor, still wanting to apologize to Akira, but not in front of everyone. Does this mean he'll be sharing these quarters...?
Dwelling on this thought for just a moment, he resolved to immediately go to bed to avoid having to speak with him in front of the others. He figured it would be easier to take Akira aside when they were both up and rested in the morning than to barge into the full room and start apologizing to Akira, blurting out in front of everyone his opinions on homosexuality and how he still respected Akira. That was private and needed to be discussed privately, so he quickly escaped back into the bunks, having not made a noise or said a word, and jumped under his covers.