Soon after treating Kestral, Ghi had retreated to her quarters, believing it was to sleep. However soon after she closed the door, the voice attacked her like it had never before, with more force, telling her to do ... terrible things. She'd collapsed, and had lain there a long time, shivering and jerking, while in her head she fought against the voice. It was a loosing battle, Ghi was never under the pretence that she was stronger than it. However she had managed to win a short respite, a brief glimpse of clarity, where she had requested Megami to tell anyone asking after her that she was sick, and asked not to have visitors.
Barely managing that she had collapsed into a series of terrible dreams, as she prowled the ship, gleefully killing the crew, ripping out their throats, breaking their necks from behind with a single bite of her jaws. The voice showed what life could be like, what she could do, and despite her revulsion, their was an attraction. Life independent, the hunter, no friends, only herself, the joy of death. But she would not allow that to dominate her, and somehow, agonisingly stopped the voice from gaining full control. But it was so close, she was so close to falling.
In another moment of clarity, feeling that the voice was only moments from resuming its attack she scrambled, to her bed, and picked up her service pistol, holding it to her head, finger on the trigger.
"Stop! Stop this or I swear I'll shoot, I'll kill the both of us!" Ghi shouted in her head, the words escaping from her lips at the same time.
"At last some spine. You wouldn't you know, you don't have the strength, weak as you are. But you have earned a breathing space. I'll be back." The voice answered, and the voice also came out of her voice, deeper than her own, mocking. The voice showed that it could control her, and then disappeared, its presence gone.
Ghi collapsed onto her knees, tired beyond belief, mentally and physically exhausted, and terrified. She reached for another shot of Calm, but then remembered, she'd already been on a triple dose. The voice had managed to penetrate her only defence.
Tears poured down her face, sticking in her fur as she pulled herself onto the bed and slept, surprisingly well, but then the Calm would help her sleep. She certainly hoped so, she didn't want to wake.
...
Quite a while later.
...
Ghi woke up with a start, still in her uniformed, eyes bleared and painfull from crying, and tail sore from lying on it. The voice still wasn't there, thank god. Just to make sure it didn't come back as easily, she grabbed another Calm and injected herself with it. Soon the calming sensation spread through her and she calmed down, her breathing rate and heart rate slowing. She took a deep breath, and stood up.
"Megami-sama, how long have I been in my room, and what has happaned while I have been in here?" She said in a calm voice.
