Shar pulled hand with ciggeretes back with shrug. Bad sense of taste eh? Shar had problems with her smell, which is probably why ciggaretes never got to her nerves. Some were put of by the smell, but she was not. That said she picked them up only after THAT happened. Another bad habit that could potentialy kill her. Shar sighed, she could really use a shot of Vodka. She frowned on her tomato juice and had another swig of the thing.
She listened to others talking. They all had some future, some dreams and something that pulled them forward. She lost all that years ago. She lived on automatic setting now. Wake up in the morning, train, breakfast, train, lunch, brood and train, evening meal, train, sleep. It was going on and on, until someone will end it for herself. She would do it, but she promised not to. She did not promise to stay at safe places though. For her being soldier was a mean to end it all, but she could not possibly say that. There is no offices in the whole world who would like to have suicidal person in her crew. That said Shar just could not go and get shot. She will still fight, because now she was again part of something and other marines and crew will depend on her too.
"Well what can I say," Shar started, looking into her glass searching for the words. "I just wanted to serve the kingdom again and Gam'trosha is just firs assignment. I will carry it on and be good marine. As to my capabilities, well you read my dossier, you know better what I can do."