Mark paused as several ideas passed through his mind. One entertaining the idea he was pretty sure she was suggesting, another figuring it best to just leave, and one he'd wished he hadn't come to mind. One where he simply ended it and removed himself from the picture completely. It wouldn't be the first time that particular one had crossed his mind, or acted upon it.
No, he couldn't do it, wouldn't do it. Despite what gains it could bring, the pain it would cause those he still loved would be too much.
End it completely was too of an easy way out as well, and he could not bare to leave Chlorate who was most dear to him, alone. That would be cruel, and he was not a coward.
So that left one final option.
"No, I will not do that. Despite my resentment, that would lead to more pain. For both me and those I love. I may not be able to be with them, but I will not do such a harm to them. It would only hurt me more in return.", Mark said drying his eyes a moment, "This world still needs Jack, he will do what I cannot. He is not afraid to do what is needed to make this place better. Such a harsh desert will require a harder hand to make a home. Picking up a gun to him is natural, always living as the soldier. It is no longer so for me, I hesitate to pull the trigger."
"Maybe one day when he reaches that goal, he put down the gun, but for now they need him. There is no place here for me any longer. It's best if I move on, and who knows, maybe there is someplace out there where I can be of use."
Mark took a breath before speaking, preparing to say he was going, "I need to get the key for Sarah's apartment on Yamatai. Maybe spending some time at my parents old home will be good for me."