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" ... Huuh."
Yukari took in another breath. She was outside Kotori's door, feeling a bit unsure. But there was little purpose in that. She had to be ready.
" ... Huuh." She rang the "doorbell."
The door almost immediately opened with Kotori's amber eyes staring right into Yukari's.
"You're lucky," Kotori said. "I was just about to head for the bridge."
"I am sorry to delay you," Yukari said. "May we speak, briefly?"
The Taisa gave a nod and moved aside, one hand gesturing inside her quarters. "Please come in."
Yukari gave a slight bow, then stepped inside. She took a seat near the desk without being prompted.
Kotori's eyes narrowed ever so slightly as she noted Yukari's direct path to one of the chairs in front of her desk. The Taisa closed the door to her room, locked it, and joined her XO on the opposite side. "Miharu, privacy AI settings. No AI awareness until the door to my quarters opens again."
"Yes, Taisa." Miharu did not seem entirely happy about the request, though.
Kotori turned her attention to Yukari. "This wasn't a social call, was it?"
"No, Taisa." Yukari's following pause was the width of a heartbeat. "Saito-Hei, Hinoto-san and I have discovered the problem with your ST backup failure."
"Psionic defense?" Kotori asked immediately at the end of Yukari's sentence.
" ... You knew?" Yukari's face looked stalled.
Kotori shook her head, her hair swaying gently like an inky curtain. "I guessed. I had several weeks to think about it, especially after SAINT closemouthedly gave me a claim we had some sort of psionic defense on board."
Yukari let her vision go out of focus for a moment. She had facts, yes ... but Kotori had figured it out. Already. No sense stopping, then. "You are aware of what this means, were you to perish."
"I have my suspicions. Nothing very definite, though," Kotori replied. "Rather than getting myself worked up on what I do not know... why don't you tell me about what you have found out first? Then I'll have reason to angst."
Yukari nodded. "You are the only existing model of the NH-29S 'Signaler' body, partially developed by Karl Sylvester. It is a body that automatically detects and repulses offensive telepathic attack. It is a technique I do not believe you can train to bolster; it simply is." She paused for about a heartbeat. "The technique is not discerning about what it interprets to be an 'offensive' telepathic attack. Anything other than telepathic communication appears to activate it. We cannot, therefore, Soul-Transfer you at this time."
Kotori nodded attentively. "While you're at it, is there anything else you need to elaborate on my condition - so that I have most of the pieces of the puzzle instead of a few?"
"Each attack will activate the technique, and each activation will strain your body. I cannot estimate how long or how effective you can be in a drawn-out battle. There are finer points ... about it. Some restraining machines are ineffective against you. But that is mostly all."
The Taisa took a deep breath and turned around in her chair to look out through her room's transparent zesuaium viewport at the stars shining beyond. After long seconds of collecting her thoughts, she finally said: "I once envisioned transfering to a NH-29 body mostly out of the novelty of it, though I was actually quite reluctant to do so. As part of my own decision process, I sent a letter to the Ketsurui Zaibatsu to see if they could include things I would have liked to keep. Skin vision and psionics," she smiled mirthlessly. "After my NH-22M body was left dying from the PNUgen raid, Karl transfered me in this one. It was easy to figure out that any difficulty in using a ST backup could very well have been tied to his work and the desires I had outlined before."
She looked back at Yukari. "I'm not bitter," she stated. "Even with the handicap of not being able to make new backups, this body still saved my life when my old one failed me. Otherwise I would be dead. ST backups are a priviledge that not everyone has - most people have only one life. For my part... I can be patient and wait for ST technology to improve to compensate for the handicap."
Yukari nodded ... but she was not done. " ... We still have your NH-22M body." Yukari was unsure about this part ... but she was speaking to a superior officer, if nothing else. She had to tell the truth. "It is usable."
Kotori stared at Yukari, eyes wide. She was obviously shocked by the revelation. The black-haired nekovalkyrja closed her eyes as if trying to put a lid on whatever impulsive reactions she might have expressed and simply reclined on her seat. Both her hands came up to cover her face and a sigh hissed out.
"It was somehow put onboard the ship. I do not know how. It is inside a cargo container below in the hold." Yukari was at a loss as to what to actually do with the body ...
Kotori raised her face from her hands to look at Yukari. "I guess the mystery of the black box countermeasure we have has been elucidated," Kotori offered a strained smile to her XO. "What would you do?"
Thinking quickly. A weakness of Yukari's. "If the soul is still intact ... all we are allowed to do is explain the situation. She, as a soul, is technically dead — we cannot issue orders to her, unless she enlists. If there is no soul, there are limited techniques available to us that can restore you to that body. ... The only other option is to reserve it for one of the Nekovalkyrja crew."
Kotori looked down a moment and finally said: "I did not sign up for this. I did not sign up to become a tool for the Empire - that was the very reason I left the Ketsurui Samurai. If that is what the Empire demands of me in order to serve it ... then I find myself in a corner. I cannot promote these kinds of measures - in fact, I think there's an Imperial Law against it."
"If there is no soul inside the body, there is no argument. Only if there is do we have a problem. We can face the problem now ... or we can leave it inside the container and address it upon completion of our mission." Yukari seemed firm about the choices.
"There is argument," Kotori countered. "I desired more of my life than to become somesort of foil against telepathic criminals. I had desires and ambitions of my own. You didn't submit to my argument that you should be made a Juni - I have no less reason to have a grievance with this."
" ... I do not believe the situations are the same. Not at this moment." Yukari kept her eyes on Kotori. "We can attempt to devote resources to developing ST technology to bypassing the technique. But those are resources we cannot devote to our war effort, if we do."
Kotori shook her head slowly. "I have my own answer already. I don't expect you to like it... but care to be my sounding board?"
"Yes," Yukari said simply. No sense in being verbose now; Kotori's mind was moving.
The Taisa nodded, moistened her lips and said: "I will not compromise the current mission by working a countermeasure to recover my original body. I will complete it and if there are any psions amongst our antagonists, I might be able to help."
"At the conclusion of the mission," Kotori continued. "I will take what measures I have at my disposal to transfer my experiences to my former body and then I will dispose of myself. If SAINT want their bloody NH-29S, they can look for someone else."
" ... Commit suicide? To foil SAINT?"
"SAINT is foiled in the process - they certainly didn't ask me about those kinds of stakes; I feel no obligation to meet them," Kotori replied. "But I owe it to myself to be unique and between me, the clone, and the NH-22M whom survived despite all odds... I'd rather root for the original."
"It is your soul. It is your choice." Yukari smiled serenely. Almost coldly. "I, nor any of the crew, will stop you."
Kotori sighed. "I will not impose imperial law on my creator. I owe him too much for that." She paused and added: "But this playing with my life makes us even. I don't have to feel guilty about my past mistakes anymore."
"You are an officer of the Empire, though, so you will have to make your own choice on wether to follow my lead or deal with it in your own fashion."
"I do not argue your rationalizations. They are yours. I will protect your right to end your life as you choose. That is my only duty as an officer." Yukari nodded.
"You make it sound so official," Kotori smiled wanly. "This should be trivial, really — as mundane as a NH-27 discarding one of her tentacles. I don't see it as suicide. I see it as reclaiming control on my life."
"It is not official. We do not know how well the memory transfer will work, if at all. But Saito-Hei has been interested in this, and I will assign her to investigate what can be done to assist you." Yukari kept the cold smile on her face.
"I have a simpler answer," Kotori claimed.
"Yes?"
"I'll create a NH-29 youngling of myself with my own memories in her," Kotori answered. "She can be used to do the Soul Transfer Backup to overwrite the data in the NH-22M. Seeing the memory capacity will be smaller, I'll leave most of the audio/video files for Miharu to transfer to the NH-22M later."
"And once that is completed ... what will become of her?"
"Same thing as myself," Kotori returned without hesitation. "There shouldn't be a problem from her either."
"If there is?"
"The process is one of self-miniaturization," Kotori explained. "It dates from the older nekovalkyrja body types and allowed them to miniaturize themselves by creating a youngling body, transfering their memories to it and then discorporating their own body after that. In essence, I would be the youngling." She smirked. "Seeing I want this, I don't think I'll cause trouble then. Being a youngling once was enough."
"I see. I understand." Yukari made a small nod. "Then there is nothing more for the crew to do, yes?"
Kotori pursed her lips as she reflected on Yukari's words and then shook her head. "Self-miniaturization is not something the NH-29's Operating System is made to do. I'll need medical assistance for that. The NH-22M's brain should also be protected from being overwriten, so, it'll likely need to be examined so to make that possible."
"There will be no overwriting," Yukari said bluntly. "With your permission, we can reformat your OS to allow for the miniaturization. But we cannot overwrite the brain of the 22M — if it has a soul, it is an individual. Your memories can be added to hers, if she accepts them."
"So, you are suggesting that she be given memories, but without the benefit of her personality growing from them?" Kotori chuckled. "That's going to cause more harm than good. The soul whom was transfered was still hers. We would have been the same at that point and you don't want her to benefit from that? With several months more of life experience under her belt?"
"Would is the operative word." Yukari's expression became tighter. "Illegal as the actions of SAINT were in this instance, you and the NH-22M are now two souls, two people. You cannot simply overwrite her that way — it is no better a decision than those of SAINT. I would prefer you both live."
Kotori looked away, her expression dark. Idealism and selfishness were obviously warring in her. "Just giving my memories to her means what I was after the PNUgen raid was just 'someone else' instead of a continuity." She smiled bitterly. "You know, the only time you ever saw Kotori in the NH-22M body was in the Empress' palace. How odd to feel this was such a long time ago when it amounts to barely being more than a year."
"It was a continuity. It was a soul transfer. Now it is not. Now she is her own person, if a soul is inside of it, and you are yourself." Yukari was leaning forward, pressing on. "You would not want an NH-29S body?"
Kotori turned on Yukari. "If I was the NH-22M, I would not want to have been copied. Period."
"You have been. That cannot be changed. It was illegal and wrong. But now it has been done. It is not a situation as arbitrary as granting rank — it is a soul. You have decided your course, but she has not decided hers." Yukari's body felt stiff.
Kotori's eyes locked with Yukari a long moment before averting them again. That had to be a record for Yukari. "I suppose I have until the end of the mission to figure out what exactly I should do then."
"You could ask her. What she would want." Yukari's face softened. "Perhaps you would agree."
"Oh, and what then?" Kotori scoffed. "Give the crew two Kotoris to deal with? That's not happening. She isn't going to just let herself go back into stasis when she learns that she's been copied. If anything, she'll fight tooth and claw to make sure she's the surviving one, and she'd have a right to do that."
"I suppose the Kotori of 'old' is not as reasonable as the current one." A smile creeped into the corners of Yukari's mouth.
"More experience doesn't necessarily prevent you from being dumb," Kotori returned hotly. She had not forgotten her XO's foolish stint in the VR chamber.
"No, it does not." Yukari's smile was more humble now. She understood the barb. "May I instruct Saito-Hei to help develop an NH-29-safe replica of the NH-7 OS? We can also attempt to theorize a more efficient process to transfer your memories to the NH-22M, if she accepts."
"If she accepts?" Kotori blinks. "Do you think it might be better for her to have none of my memories?"
"I do not know." Yukari's eyes locked onto Kotori's. "It will be her decision. She is her own soul — she must choose. She might be more reasonable than I thought."
Kotori stood up. "Was there anything else you needed to tell me?"
"I wanted to apologize, for my behavior this morning. It was unbecoming." Yukari stood and bowed deeply to Kotori.
"Well, you seem fit enough," Kotori replied. "I take it that means you are fit for bridge duty?"
"I am."
"Good," Kotori returned, grim. "Let's get this mission over with then." She headed for the door.
"Kotori." Yukari said, sharply. Now or never. " ... I have neglected you, recently. I am sorry, Koto-san ... I have not felt I can approach you, and I have been cowardly."
"I never prevented you from bathing with me, Yukari. You're welcome to if that is what you want to do." Kotori smiled faintly. "Why ask? Did you think I would reject you?"
"Reject? No. But you might not have said anything to me. I did not know." Yukari's own smile rose on her face like the sun. "Besides, Koto-san, I must show Nyton how to fix your hair properly."
Kotori had a smile in return to Yukari's, though hers had about as much warmth as the setting sun over Ralt did. The tidings Yukari had brought left a wound which was still too raw for more than that. "I suppose you could teach him much." Kotori yanked the door open and left her room.
Yukari looked at the closed door for a few seconds, then let out a shallow sigh. She then followed Kotori out.
END