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A giggle fit nearly caught up with the poor Warrant Officer, but Masako cut herself off just as it was about to start. She took this moment to check on the tea and fiddle with the tea bags before closing the pot again to allow it more time. "But honestly, Saito-san," Masako said more informally. "I really wouldn't consider you a coward," the raven-hair Neko stated with a smile. "What has it been, two years since we all began serving aboard the Miharu? Sure, you have only been in a few sorties in a Powered Armor, but you've always been someone we could all count on. That isn't the sign of a coward, even a sensible one. You may have been frightened by everything that happened around you, but you did what you could even in those situations. If that isn't bravery, I don't know what is."
The indirect compliment just seemed to gum up Miyoko's mental processes that much more. She pushed herself upright. "Mm, perhaps. It might just be lingering resentment over what happened to Mara. That was entirely thanks to me. Like I said, I have at least been feeling more comfortable heading into battles. It's amazing what a difference just being separated from the enemy by a few AUs can do, even if we're still the ones.” Miyoko paused for a moment before adding, "And I never have to see blood or their faces..."
Masako grimaced at the added commented and nodded. "That would be a plus," she replied and scratched the tip of her ear. "I wouldn't know much about ship to ship combat, so AU seem too large for me to even think of in terms of combat," the Warrant Officer replied. "But...well, all I have to say is that fighting Mishhu is easier in Powered Armor combat than fighting these traitors," the raven-haired Neko stated before chuckling. "Well...in terms of combat difficulty, I guess not..." she began moments before fading off. To distract herself, the Warrant Officer checked on the tea on last time before removing the bags from the pot. A quick search for cups yielded a pair of steel mugs for the smaller woman to pour their tea. A moment later, Masako would be holding one of the mugs out to Miyoko with a warm smile. "Here."
"Thank you." Miyoko returned the smile gratefully, then carefully took the mug and blew on it, not hazarding a sip from the still almost boiling hot tea just yet. She contemplated the tea silently for a few moments before musing out loud, "I'm starting to become convinced that 'bravery' is just another word for being so scared that you could cry, but pressing on because of the consequences if you turn back. It's even economically sound.” Another few seconds of silent musing passed before she added, "... or just being reckless or ignorant enough to ignore the immediate risk to yourself. Probably a delicate balance of the two." She looked to Masako curiously. "You've been in quite a few fights... do you ever resent, well, all of this? Being born and bred for war and expected to sacrifice your life if needed, with nothing so much as a 'please'?"
Taking a seat beside Miyoko, the smaller Neko couldn't help but purse her lips in thought before taking a sip of her green tea. Well, it wasn't first class tea, but it was relaxing none-the-less. "I did resent it once before," she mumbled as she looked out the large windows of the observation deck and the view it held. "Nearly four years ago," she trailed off a bit at the memory.
Miyoko nodded thoughtfully at that. "I used to think that giving us self-awareness was one of the cruelest things the empire could have done. Giving us hopes, dreams, and personalities even when it was practically guaranteed that we'd die horribly. Now," The Yamataian shrugged, a bit of an anticlimax to the whole speech.
Masako snorted and shook her head. "Maybe, but I can't say I regret or resent anything now," the raven-haired neko stated as she turned her void-black eyes to the sensor operator. "Because if I did now, It would mean resenting everything I've gained over the years, including some important people in my life."
Miyoko shrugged again. "I can't say I'd be happier if I were a Nekomachina. I suspect I'd be a rather poor scientist, actually. Of course, I might change my mind if I end up dying slowly on some alien rock." She finally lifted the cup to her face, taking a moment to smell the tea appreciatively before sipping from it. "I think that we generally agree, now. Even if we do die, it's better for the time leading up to it to be filled with curiosity and love and all that than... well, nothing."
Smiling warmly, Masako nodded silently in agreement as she took a sip of tea again. "Though apparently its more curiosity and friendship than love with us," she commented with a snort of amusement.
"Hm?" Miyoko arched an eyebrow quizzically toward Masako, swishing the contents of her mug around a little--a not-so-subtle form of fidgeting. For all of her scientific acumen, Miyoko was well-aware that she wasn't very skilled with people... and Masako's last sentence was a practical minefield of potential misreading.
"Eh?" Masako hummed in question before frowning. "Ah...um...did I say something wrong?" the Warrant Officer asked awkwardly.
Miyoko politely hid her face by taking a rather long drink from her cup... though it was also partially for her own benefit, since she was probably looking a bit too thoughtful for her own good at the moment. "Not at all. I think we practically just founded the YSS Miharu Philosophy Club, so I'm not sure anything is off-limits at the moment."
There was a short pause for a moment before Masako smiled cutely. "Our humble ramblings sure did come to deep philosophical discussion, didn't it?" she replied as she chose the take a long drink from her own cup at that point to hide her confusion.
"Ah, well." Miyoko swished her tea around some more, watching the contents of the cup. "If there were any sort of commendation for navel-gazing and taking the most circumspect route possible, I'd probably be a decorated officer by now."
Masako stayed silent a moment longer staring at her own mug before glancing back at Miyoko. "I guess now would have been the perfect time to have given you those birthday presents I bought you a while back," the Warrant Officer replied with an awkward chuckle, changing the subject rather quickly. "I've been meaning to give them to you for a while, but I've never found the opportunity."
"Oh, well, it really wasn't necessary... but thank you." Miyoko gave a polite laugh. "I couldn't really blame you for holding on to them, anyway. Up until recently, I expected us to get some shore leave soon... given the current circumstances, though, I don't think there will be any of that for the foreseeable future." She tapped at the rim of her glass, still more fidgeting. "Though there's still time now, if you'd like. I don't think it's quite in line with standard birthday protocol, but we've already twisted it near the breaking point, I expect."
Oblivious to Miyoko's fidgeting, Masako stood up quickly with a cute smile. "I'll go get them from my quarters right now," she replied as she set her mug on a nearby table. "Don't go anywhere," the raven-haired Warrant Officer stated before jogging off towards the Port-side corridor.
Miyoko nodded, relaxing a bit in the lull in the conversation. She leaned back and sipped at her tea; managing to drain most of the cup in the time it took Masako to reach her room and return.
And return Masako did; only her expression was a bit more nervous than the one she had left with. Looking at her hands, the Warrant Officer held a pair of hardcover books. Apparently, the smaller Neko had decided to purchase real paper books rather than just digitally stored texts. "Ah, I wasn't quite sure what you would enjoy reading when I was shopping," the raven-haired Neko warned as she slowly held out the books to the enlisted woman. "Happy Belated Birthday," she said with an awkward smile. The titles of both could easily be seen as Masako held them out to Miyoko with on titled Mikiru's Guide: Elysian Society and the other Astrophysics Latest.
Miyoko kept her eyes forward as Masako returned; doing her best to at least look a little disinterested... it wouldn't do to be bouncing around in excitement like a child, after all. When Masako presented the gifts, though, she took them with a genuine smile. "Thank you!" She thumbed through the two books for several moments, reviewing the contents. Her preference for physical books over electronic copies couldn't be hard to puzzle out, thanks to spending hours in the wardroom reading them, but she still felt a bit flattered at having somebody actually pick up on it. "I'm sure they'll be interesting... I've never been to Elysia, so maybe this will open up some options the next time I take a vacation." After a few moments, she added, "I'm going to owe half the ship birthday presents soon enough, and I'll need to work for three months to put half as much care into them as you all have."
A big, cute smile of relief crossed Masako's face as she saw Miyoko's smile. "Don't worry too much about me," she replied. "I've never received a birthday gift, but I love giving them to people special to me."
"Not a single present?" Miyoko frowned, sliding the books into her lap. "I'll have to be the first to give you one, then."
Sitting back down next to the sensor operator, Masako shook her head gently as she kept that cute smile upon her face. "Really, it's fine," she replied with a chuckle. "I don't even know what I want to get for myself most of the time anyway, so I couldn't expect other people frustrating themselves over finding gifts for me."
"I rarely have an idea what to do with my money, myself, but that hasn't stopped everybody else from doing a fairly good job of it." Miyoko mentally added an exception for Sanjuro. "As I understand it, the idea is for people to buy you things you'd enjoy, but would be too embarrassed or unwilling to pay for normally." She had to pause and consider that for a moment. By that strict definition, there were some very odd gift ideas popping into her head.
Masako chuckled at Miyoko's definition and nodded. "I see," she replied before taking a sip to finish her tea. "Well, if I cannot dissuade you, then I'll wait with anticipation for my next birthday," the raven-haired Neko replied with a warm smile.
"Well, in that case, I'll do my best to not have a panic attack and flee the ship for now," Miyoko replied. "I'll have to stay here to make sure that nothing kills you before then."
Masako couldn't help but allow a pinkish hue to tint her cheeks. "Funny, I thought that last bit was my line of work," Masako replied in a teasing manner.
"You have to keep me alive if I'm to buy you a present, you know. Consider it a mutual protection pact." Miyoko grinned at that, extending a hand to Masako for a shake.
Halting herself from nearly giggling like a schoolgirl once more, Masako smiled and took the sensor operator's hand. "Of course," she replied and shook Miyoko's hand.
Miyoko shook the hand... and then shook it some more, the handshake drawing out a bit longer than probably strictly necessary. Finally, she seemed to come back to her senses, withdrawing her hand and clearing her throat, her own cheeks suddenly carrying a bit of a blush. "It's rare that I get to talk to anybody like this recently... a shame, since I'd like to do it more often."
For a moment, Masako was quite curious as to why the taller Neko had drawn the handshake out longer than the usual polite timing. The sensor operator's blush made the Warrant Officer even more curious, but Miyoko's later comment seemed to speak for it. "I guess I could understand it being hard to talk to most people on the bridge, considering everyone there but Hinoto would be significantly higher in rank," Masako replied before scratching the tip of her ear in thought. "But surely you can talk to Hinoto or Mara or maybe even Ashita," Masako halted on that last bit and frowned. "Well, maybe not him," she amended rather quickly.
Miyoko nodded. "Sometimes, yes. The Shosa and I get along fairly well too. I just feel like it leaves me a bit disconnected with the rest of the crew at times." With that, Miyoko abruptly cleared her throat and moved to stand. "I... should probably head back. Do you mind if I take the rest of the pot of tea with me? I'm sure the others would appreciate a drink and a bit of caffeine."
"Of course," Masako replied with a smile as she stood along with the taller Neko. "I should probably help down in Engineering; Freeman-Juni could probably use more hands to make the work move faster."
Miyoko nodded, carefully picking up the pot along with the two books. "Thank you for the talk and the tea. It helped... clear my mind."
"Ah, hold on," Masako replied as she went into the kitchen once more. In moments, the Warrant Officer brought out a tray and two more mugs. "Here, use this. It should help out more."
"Ah, thank you. There are good reasons I'm not a caretaker, it would seem..." Miyoko placed the pot onto the tray and balanced it on one hand.
Masako paused a moment as she watched Miyoko hold the tray with one hand. Giving the taller Neko a pondering expression, the Warrant Officer nodded and smiled. "Good luck."
"Thank you. I expect we'll all be wanting as much of it as we can get." Still balancing the load of the tray and the books--she'd drop them off in her room later, when she wasn't feeling pressed for time--Miyoko headed back toward the data core.
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