Re: Mission 5: Amaya's Gate
Although Tom had moved onto the mainscreen, rubbing the nanomachine paste along the cracks, his movements slowed and then stopped before Kotori's confession. A shiver went through Tom's body, and he brought his head down slowly against the clear, glassy surface. His right hand opened and fell onto the screen, an armored pawprint that left visible smudges of grease behind.
"Kotori," he said. "Don't you remember our conversation after Bowhordia? 'I can never go back to the way things were. I can only move forward.' You said 'I found the darkness, but that didn't make me a lesser man.'"
With an aching push, he turned around and faced Kotori.
"'To live is to fight,' you said. I've spent my time since Bowhordia following the message behind those words. I, everyone have sacrificed so much following those words. We've subjected ourselves to pain, to despair, given our lives for you, so that we may follow your words."
Tom's glistening eyes held his angry tears in check, but his cheeks reddened.
"Faith? Our faith was never in question, Taisa. Do not insult us. You are family to us... to me. But you ask me to be happy, after this? Do not project your weaknesses onto me, as if my forgiveness is some sort of spiritual elixer! As if it makes this all better! Rise above that!"
He took a couple quivering breaths, rubbing his eyes with the sleeve of his armor, finding only cold metal scraping against him. When he found that had little effect, he gave up trying to hide his tears.
"We are opposed in our perspectives, and that may always be so... but you are still family, damn it! And I know what you did you did because it was necessary. And when we get out of this, I will still invite you to our wedding. You will come to Ralt and experience the joy of our simple life, and you will be a guest of honor because you will have made it possible for us to achieve our dreams... to show that our faith in you was well founded, that in this sick world there is still something worth holding on to!"
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"Decreasing feed to main CFS cable," Miharu replied. "CFS unit operating at 47% capacity. This level should be enough for your suit to withstand."
Nao had to work quickly. The ship was intentionally weakening itself for these repairs.