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OOC ISC Phoenix OOC chatter
- Thread starter Luca
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Its a terrible shame that the 1000th post in the ISC Phoenix OOC is a depressing one, but...
I'm running out of steam.
The last few days have been a string of confusion, disappointments, terrible realisations and catching up that's left me blindsided and angry.
It even has me questioning if what I've devoted my life to will truly do me any favours in the long run. There's no work out there that's relevant to me, I don't feel motivated to look for anything else, gaming and porn doesn't even feel good anymore.
I'm 'investing' in a short course every Saturday to expand my options, but it keeps making me wonder if my original goal was even worth pursuing at this day and age. The economy sucks balls, my hard-earned degree isn't worth the paper its printed on, and if things continue, my grandkids are going to be paying my parent's bills seventy years later.
I just want something to work as intended, and work simply. That's all.
Even the gratification I get from reading your posts on the ISC Phoenix has started to go numb. But some part of me doesn't want the ISC Phoenix to simply sputter out like just about every other plot on this damn website. I don't know what it is either, but its telling me to end it on a good note - to end it definitively.
I'll be trying to continue as best as I can, so bear with me.
tl;dr: Luca sad.
I'm running out of steam.
The last few days have been a string of confusion, disappointments, terrible realisations and catching up that's left me blindsided and angry.
It even has me questioning if what I've devoted my life to will truly do me any favours in the long run. There's no work out there that's relevant to me, I don't feel motivated to look for anything else, gaming and porn doesn't even feel good anymore.
I'm 'investing' in a short course every Saturday to expand my options, but it keeps making me wonder if my original goal was even worth pursuing at this day and age. The economy sucks balls, my hard-earned degree isn't worth the paper its printed on, and if things continue, my grandkids are going to be paying my parent's bills seventy years later.
I just want something to work as intended, and work simply. That's all.
Even the gratification I get from reading your posts on the ISC Phoenix has started to go numb. But some part of me doesn't want the ISC Phoenix to simply sputter out like just about every other plot on this damn website. I don't know what it is either, but its telling me to end it on a good note - to end it definitively.
I'll be trying to continue as best as I can, so bear with me.
tl;dr: Luca sad.
I hate to ring the already dirging bell, but you're not the only one encountering this problem, Luca. Anyone going into a creative career path relies on 'getting discovered' to ever make any substantial amount of money, compound economic atmosphere issue aside. The upside to this is that there are numerous opportunities to find connections in the industry. You're not in the best part of the world for that, especially since EA bought up Pandemic and ran it into the ground.
However, you're very close to a major figure in the gaming industry, 2K Marin. I don't know how you'd feel about paying a visit to the studio in Canberra, but if were able to you might meet some people who could help you out. Whether it's a grunt UI artist or a design director, they all had to get their jobs somehow. Maybe you could speak with some of them?
Another potential lead: I heard recently of a company in Perth rising from the ashes of Pandemic Studios. The name escapes me, but I remember that they're going to be developing primarily for the mobile platforms like the iPhone and Droid. If I can find them, I'll add in the name here and maybe you can speak with someone there.
Just because I'm getting really wordy here (Don't usually get to talk about things I've read on gamesindustry.biz), I'll conclude with a little bit of encouragement: Don't ever forget why you're in the business! (Kid?) We all worked hard to be who we are, and some of us haven't got scraps to show for it! That doesn't make us stupid, or in the 'wrong line of work'. Things go wrong, constantly. It can be dramatically disheartening, especially if you forget about obstacles being part of the game. (Double meaning potential? Maybe.) I, for one, suggest picking yourself up and getting some shitty, mind-numbing experience doing a job that only slightly has anything to do with what you want. Then, with that under your belt, you can approach publishers with your ideas and a very impressive resume with years of experience in "Interactive Software Service Design and Maintenance". (Which is really just like making the coffee, setting the cup on a napkin on the desk, and cleaning it up later; except at a development studio.)
Alternatively, you could join the rioters in England over your extremely high cost of tuition...
However, you're very close to a major figure in the gaming industry, 2K Marin. I don't know how you'd feel about paying a visit to the studio in Canberra, but if were able to you might meet some people who could help you out. Whether it's a grunt UI artist or a design director, they all had to get their jobs somehow. Maybe you could speak with some of them?
Another potential lead: I heard recently of a company in Perth rising from the ashes of Pandemic Studios. The name escapes me, but I remember that they're going to be developing primarily for the mobile platforms like the iPhone and Droid. If I can find them, I'll add in the name here and maybe you can speak with someone there.
Just because I'm getting really wordy here (Don't usually get to talk about things I've read on gamesindustry.biz), I'll conclude with a little bit of encouragement: Don't ever forget why you're in the business! (Kid?) We all worked hard to be who we are, and some of us haven't got scraps to show for it! That doesn't make us stupid, or in the 'wrong line of work'. Things go wrong, constantly. It can be dramatically disheartening, especially if you forget about obstacles being part of the game. (Double meaning potential? Maybe.) I, for one, suggest picking yourself up and getting some shitty, mind-numbing experience doing a job that only slightly has anything to do with what you want. Then, with that under your belt, you can approach publishers with your ideas and a very impressive resume with years of experience in "Interactive Software Service Design and Maintenance". (Which is really just like making the coffee, setting the cup on a napkin on the desk, and cleaning it up later; except at a development studio.)
Alternatively, you could join the rioters in England over your extremely high cost of tuition...
I feel all sorts of loved. i just recently got my laptop fixed and hooked up to the internet here. It's slow as hell and i'm uber busy but I will make time for my ISC Phoenix crew.I am going to have to start reading up on the primary plot thread again; we should be coming to the end of our little aside mission soon and rejoining the main plotline.
I will be in port soon and I would like to JP with you, Cadet, to make up for all this time I've been neglecting you. ;_; We're going to be in port for a couple of weeks, and there will be time.
As to you, Luca, the entire country is currently trimming sails. There's nothing else for it. Get by however you can until you hit upon your muse again.
Me, I plan on getting a CDL as a backup plan, but that's just me.
I will be in port soon and I would like to JP with you, Cadet, to make up for all this time I've been neglecting you. ;_; We're going to be in port for a couple of weeks, and there will be time.
As to you, Luca, the entire country is currently trimming sails. There's nothing else for it. Get by however you can until you hit upon your muse again.
Me, I plan on getting a CDL as a backup plan, but that's just me.
A splodge of Wisdom for y'all:
"Power corrupts, but awesome power corrupts awesomely."
I think Luca is on a slippery slope as he begins to realise that he can singlehandedly take on an entire army and draw even against them.
I think the only things keeping him from doing that and maybe a few other very nasty things are the fact that his crew is around him to remind him what he's fighting for and what he set out to do when he started the ISC Phoenix all those years ago: To stamp out Evil, Corruption and Wrongness in the universe with Good, Truth and Balls.
None of that could've come to fruition if a crew wasn't behind him to support him and keep him on the straight and narrow.
"Power corrupts, but awesome power corrupts awesomely."
I think Luca is on a slippery slope as he begins to realise that he can singlehandedly take on an entire army and draw even against them.
I think the only things keeping him from doing that and maybe a few other very nasty things are the fact that his crew is around him to remind him what he's fighting for and what he set out to do when he started the ISC Phoenix all those years ago: To stamp out Evil, Corruption and Wrongness in the universe with Good, Truth and Balls.
None of that could've come to fruition if a crew wasn't behind him to support him and keep him on the straight and narrow.
Blackbird Lore
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Luca can expect a good number of talks about God and Getting Your Shit Straight if it persists.Luca said:
Cads, you're probably going to hate me, but I refuse to have Mr. Smith be a henpecked husband from now on. Its just too jarring for the tone and theme of the ISC Phoenix.
You keep on telling me "He'll sort himself out", well, he isn't let's face the facts. Its Mr. Smith's darkest hour at the moment. He's at his lowest and he just wants the world to swallow him whole. He's in no mood to consider making changes to his lifestyle and banishing his demons by himself.
Its epiphany time, Luca style. We need to talk this over ASAP for next post.
You keep on telling me "He'll sort himself out", well, he isn't let's face the facts. Its Mr. Smith's darkest hour at the moment. He's at his lowest and he just wants the world to swallow him whole. He's in no mood to consider making changes to his lifestyle and banishing his demons by himself.
Its epiphany time, Luca style. We need to talk this over ASAP for next post.
I have always wrote Naoko with the idea of an elemental force of nature; plainly amoral, semi-evil, quasi-egotistic. I believe she was placed as 'true neutral' on the scale, but she's also got an axe murderer streak.
I mention this because, if this is also (as I suspect it may be) disruptive to the flow, I am open to private discussion.
I mention this because, if this is also (as I suspect it may be) disruptive to the flow, I am open to private discussion.
