Gabriel
🎖️ Game Master
Wardroom
After finishing eating, Ramiro quietly brought his dishes over to the proper area and deposited them before making his way out of the room. He proceeded down to the crew cabins, ignoring the rest of the lounge, and entered his own cabin. Pacing back and forth he muttered to himself before stopping and slamming his fist into the wall.
"Damn it!" He shouted as his eyes began to tear. Straightening up, he tightened his expression and wiped his eyes. "A soldier doesn't cry Ramiro, remember? That's what your bastard of a father used to tell you. A soldier doesn't cry Ramiro."
His face dropped to face the ground. He paused for a moment before he spoke, barely audible, "It's not fair." He exited the room.
Bridge
Ramiro came walking into the bridge, his expression still sullen and his shoulders hunched.
"Blackberry-Shoi, would you remind if I relieve you?"
"Not at all!" She responded as she got up. "Are you alright Ramiro."
"Fine," he said with a sigh. "I just need some time with myself, my station, and Charisma."
"I know the feeling," she said with a smile. "An operator has no greater friend than his MEGAMI. I'll leave you alone." She left the room.
"Thanks," he said with a forced smile before dropping into his seat, bringing a hand up to massage his brow. "Charisma, how long have we been together?"
"1086 days, excluding when you were at Fort Ready."
"A thousand days," he said quietly. "So you would tell me if I was being an ass right?"
"Of course I would."
"Was I being an ass?"
"You were being an ass Ramiro."
Ramiro sighed as he brought both hands to face and rubbed his temples.
"I mean, I have a right to be upset though, right? Sune and I stepped foot on this ship together, bunked together. We were best pals, and he doesn't even think to tell me the most basic details of his life anymore. How was I suppose to react to something like that, finding out that he relations with Cherry and is now seeking relations with Hanako."
"Ramiro..." Charisma replied with tone of warning.
"And for the matter, why should I be surprised? He's always been the favorite. When I leave for Fort Ready I don't get so much as a goodbye, he leaves for an assignment that she asked him to go on and she goes out of her way to see him off, give him a sappy goodbye, and loses herself when she has the opportunity to see him again."
"Are you jealous of Ketsurui-Shosho's affection for him?"
"You know the answer to that Charisma, so don't think to patronize me. It's way beyond her playing favorites with him, it's her doing the opposite thereof with me. Takeyu has spent fewer days on this ship than I, yet he has outranked me since the day that I returned, and outranked me by far. A year goes by with me on the ship, I'm advanced no further than a starting Heisho, another year goes by without me and Sune is an officer, Takeyu is an officer, several recruits there less thank six months outrank me."
"Ramiro, you've told me yourself that you wouldn't accept Shoi even if it was offered to you."
"I know that, but it's the principle of the matter. She could at least ask. Even after Sune and Helen were gone and she wasn't sure what the officer situation was going to be on the bridge, for all I know I wasn't even considered. But if it had been Sune in my position she would have jumped at the opportunity to reward him, because everyone loves Sune. Most of the people on this crew don't even exchange words with me. I've spent leaves doing nothing but following Hanako around to protect her because I care for her like I would my own sister.
"You don't have a sister Ramiro."
"Exactly!" At this point Ramiro stood and started pacing the bridge. "But it's just like back home with my bloody father. He didn't give two shits what I wanted, I lived on my own, for years, not even an adult yet, because being cold, miserable, and near-death under a tree was better than living under his roof. I don't kniw why I even bother getting upset though, it's not like I shouldn't be used to it! Besideds, nobody around here even notices." He sighed and dropped his shoulders, lowering his head to stand at the ground. "Nobody... It's just not fair Charisma."
"Ramiro, you know I care. We've worked together a long time and I've gotten to know you well. You are a good man who has lived a hard life, but one day you too will have your day in the sun, you too will find love, and you too will finally have a place to call home."
"But I do have a place to call home. It's right here, but sometimes it feels just like my old home, I want to be here but nobody else wants me here."
"I want you here, and that should be enough."
"I know, thank you Charisma."
"You are very welcome little one."
Smiling a little, Ramiro set himself back into his seat and laid back, just monitoring the data going through his system.
After finishing eating, Ramiro quietly brought his dishes over to the proper area and deposited them before making his way out of the room. He proceeded down to the crew cabins, ignoring the rest of the lounge, and entered his own cabin. Pacing back and forth he muttered to himself before stopping and slamming his fist into the wall.
"Damn it!" He shouted as his eyes began to tear. Straightening up, he tightened his expression and wiped his eyes. "A soldier doesn't cry Ramiro, remember? That's what your bastard of a father used to tell you. A soldier doesn't cry Ramiro."
His face dropped to face the ground. He paused for a moment before he spoke, barely audible, "It's not fair." He exited the room.
Bridge
Ramiro came walking into the bridge, his expression still sullen and his shoulders hunched.
"Blackberry-Shoi, would you remind if I relieve you?"
"Not at all!" She responded as she got up. "Are you alright Ramiro."
"Fine," he said with a sigh. "I just need some time with myself, my station, and Charisma."
"I know the feeling," she said with a smile. "An operator has no greater friend than his MEGAMI. I'll leave you alone." She left the room.
"Thanks," he said with a forced smile before dropping into his seat, bringing a hand up to massage his brow. "Charisma, how long have we been together?"
"1086 days, excluding when you were at Fort Ready."
"A thousand days," he said quietly. "So you would tell me if I was being an ass right?"
"Of course I would."
"Was I being an ass?"
"You were being an ass Ramiro."
Ramiro sighed as he brought both hands to face and rubbed his temples.
"I mean, I have a right to be upset though, right? Sune and I stepped foot on this ship together, bunked together. We were best pals, and he doesn't even think to tell me the most basic details of his life anymore. How was I suppose to react to something like that, finding out that he relations with Cherry and is now seeking relations with Hanako."
"Ramiro..." Charisma replied with tone of warning.
"And for the matter, why should I be surprised? He's always been the favorite. When I leave for Fort Ready I don't get so much as a goodbye, he leaves for an assignment that she asked him to go on and she goes out of her way to see him off, give him a sappy goodbye, and loses herself when she has the opportunity to see him again."
"Are you jealous of Ketsurui-Shosho's affection for him?"
"You know the answer to that Charisma, so don't think to patronize me. It's way beyond her playing favorites with him, it's her doing the opposite thereof with me. Takeyu has spent fewer days on this ship than I, yet he has outranked me since the day that I returned, and outranked me by far. A year goes by with me on the ship, I'm advanced no further than a starting Heisho, another year goes by without me and Sune is an officer, Takeyu is an officer, several recruits there less thank six months outrank me."
"Ramiro, you've told me yourself that you wouldn't accept Shoi even if it was offered to you."
"I know that, but it's the principle of the matter. She could at least ask. Even after Sune and Helen were gone and she wasn't sure what the officer situation was going to be on the bridge, for all I know I wasn't even considered. But if it had been Sune in my position she would have jumped at the opportunity to reward him, because everyone loves Sune. Most of the people on this crew don't even exchange words with me. I've spent leaves doing nothing but following Hanako around to protect her because I care for her like I would my own sister.
"You don't have a sister Ramiro."
"Exactly!" At this point Ramiro stood and started pacing the bridge. "But it's just like back home with my bloody father. He didn't give two shits what I wanted, I lived on my own, for years, not even an adult yet, because being cold, miserable, and near-death under a tree was better than living under his roof. I don't kniw why I even bother getting upset though, it's not like I shouldn't be used to it! Besideds, nobody around here even notices." He sighed and dropped his shoulders, lowering his head to stand at the ground. "Nobody... It's just not fair Charisma."
"Ramiro, you know I care. We've worked together a long time and I've gotten to know you well. You are a good man who has lived a hard life, but one day you too will have your day in the sun, you too will find love, and you too will finally have a place to call home."
"But I do have a place to call home. It's right here, but sometimes it feels just like my old home, I want to be here but nobody else wants me here."
"I want you here, and that should be enough."
"I know, thank you Charisma."
"You are very welcome little one."
Smiling a little, Ramiro set himself back into his seat and laid back, just monitoring the data going through his system.